Ministry of Forgiveness

So, what is a ministry of forgiveness?

I would have to start with, “it is a lifetime process where we forgive others for hurts whether willful or not.” If you speak to secular counselors and shrinks, they will all concur that forgiveness brings much personal healing.

I know I watched a loved one stress out frequently because of careless, controlling or judgmental remarks from others close to them.

It was all consuming for this person, while the perpetrator went on happily and cluelessly. She was just a bossy person, who thought her ways were the best, she was a hotshot executive.  At the end of the day, this was a loving and caring person who really didn’t know better.

So, whatever happened to the alleged victim who had no self esteem?

I told her constantly to let it go, look at the other person and note she does it to the entire family. And they either ignored her or gave it back. Then afterwards everyone was best buddies again.  Why and how? Forgiveness comes easy for some people and they are generally much more healthy overall.

Years ago I worked in a busy ICU.

This day I was sooooo busy, but even in my business I saw a new patient who seemed terribly depressed and oppressed. Something darker than the depression seemed tangible to me. I don’t know how to explain what I sensed as I don’t know how to explain spiritual things we do not see with the eye.  Anyway, I was very aware of this tormented soul, but too busy to chat with him.

Praise God, a priest went in and spent alot of time with him. I thought for sure this fellow would lighten up. But when I went by his room, the darkness and sadness prevailed.

Finally, I went in to chat. This is what transacted!
Me: hi, are you catholic?

Patient: yes,mam

Me: did you have confession?

Patient: yes mam

Me: well why are you so sad, you have be cleansed by the Blood of the Lamb. All heavens rejoicing.

Patient: Lady you don’t know what your talking about.  Long time ago in Korea we were walking with woman and children. One of the guys started going nuts, raping the woman and killing all of them. We, I went along with this. I see the faces of these people in my dreams. When I came home to my family, I became an alcoholic. My wife divorced me, I lost my job and went homeless. For 20 years I have lived with this horrible, despicable memory that I participated in. I confessed this over and over. But still see their faces.

Me inwardly thinking: wow, why did I come in this room? And the Lord prompted me to take out my Benedictan crucifix which was under my scrub jacket. So, I did and I looked at the cross, then held it up for him to see.

Me: who is this?

Patient: Jesus


Patient: He died for our sins.

Me: who is Jesus?

Patient: God.

Me: Whose sins did He die for?

Patient: everyone’s

Me: Yours included?

Patient: yes.

Me: So what is wrong with you?

Patient: I cannot forgive myself.

Me: So, God almighty dies on the Cross and forgives you your sins, but you cannot forgive yourself?

Patient: oh my gosh lady, you are right.  Well, I will see you someday in heaven.

And I saw light enter his dark eyes and felt something lift put of his room. ess

He had been forgiven a long time ago at his first confession, but held onto the guilt and shame. Finally, he realized he had to let it go.  When he was able to forgive himself, the evil oppression was lifted by Jesus.  Jesus is the light of the world, don’t miss His gift of forgiveness.

Yes, the Minstry of forgiveness is an ongoing process. So, start peeling away the layers and let Jesus in. Did you go to confession yet? Well, heck get going.


Childhood Gift

What is a Childhood gift?

A childhood gift is when you trust that others will take care of you and you just are supposed to enjoy all the goodness of life. I remember flitting around happily like a carefree butterfly as a child.

And yes this gift is often assaulted or wounded
However, bats come which are enemies of the butterfly as they love to eat them or sometimes just wound them. Certainly we all have had some kind of assault which leaves a wound. And not all assaults are willfully done by others.

Why does this happen?

Sometimes it is just plan selfishness or better yet sinfulness that causes others to hurt those closest to them. Or how about concupiscence, you know the effects of original sin? Certainly, there are many factors, sometimes generational patterns, or addictions that trickled down even though you said, I will not do that to my kids or family. I don’t need to be specific because most of us disliked something that happened to us as children or young adults.

So, what to do?

Well, my understanding is that Jesus is the Divine Healer and that when you bring dark things in the form of wounds, sins or other issues to His light He heals them. Especially, for those who ask with their whole heart, sort like calling out for help sincerely, knowing that you can’t do this alone and asking His help. This takes humility, something alot of Americans and other cultures fail to understand as rugged individualism or other mentalities prevail.

A simple way to see past your pride is in my first paragraph. The child went along happily, trusting his/her parents would take care of them. Not worrying, just being a child. This is so with God, He is an awesome, merciful Father and wants to help us so much. He sent His only Son, who out of obedience to His Father and love of humanity died to bridge the chasm. The chasm we created and continue to do now. But Jesus bridged it, if we but look to Him.
Let Jesus put mud on our blind eyes of the soul and spirit. Let Him fill us with Divine life, light and healing. Let Him wash your sins….never too late for confession folks. Let Him help you forgive yourself and others.

If you do this, all in heaven will rejoice, but other evil ones will not like it.

They will pull you back into the darkness if they can. Or they will seek a weak link in your family. Sooooo, you must pray for their protection and for their spiritual eyes and heart to open.

If, God is love and Jesus is the Way then don’t miss the bridge that brings you to your spiritual childhood. After all, you have a childhood gift from God. Don’t fear the One who created you, run to Him as a small child runs to have daddy or mommy pick them up.